Minggu, 12 Juni 2016

Lana Del Rey - American

Play house, put my favorite record on
Get down, get your crystal method on
You were like, tall, tan, driving 'round the city
Flirtin' with the girls like, "You're so pretty."
"Springsteen is the king, don't you think?"
I was like, "Hell yeah, that guy can sing."

Like ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh-oh

You make me crazy, you make me wild
Just like a baby, spin me 'round like a child
Your skin so golden brown
Be young, be dope, be proud
Like an American
Ooh-ooh ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh ooh ooh-ooh
Like an American
Ooh-ooh ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh ooh ooh-ooh

Drive fast, I can almost taste it now
L.A., I don't even have to fake it now
You were like so sick, everybody said it
You were way ahead of the trend, g-get it
Elvis is the best, hell yes
Honey put on that party dress
Like Oh oh oh ohooh
Oh oh oh ohoowoow

You make me crazy, you make me wild
Just like a baby, you spin me round like a child
Your skin so golden brown
Be young, be dope, be proud
Like an American
Ooh-ooh ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh ooh ooh-ooh
Like an American
Ooh-ooh ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh ooh ooh-ooh

Everybody wants to go fast, but they can't compare
I don't really want the rest, only you can take me there
I don't even know what I'm saying, but I'm praying for you

You make me crazy, you make me wild
Just like a baby, you spin me round like a child
Your skin so golden brown
Be young, be dope, be proud
Like an American
Oh oh ohoh oh oh oh ohoohh
Like an American
Oh oh ohoh oh oh oh ohoohh
Like an American
Oh oh ohoh oh oh oh ohoohh
Like an American
Oh oh ohoh oh oh oh ohoohh
Like an American

Rabu, 08 Juni 2016

Maaf.

Postingan ini aku publikasikan hanya sekedar untuk melampiaskan perasaan bersalah aku untuk orang yang dirahasiakan, sebut saja bunga.


nw ----------->> od

maaf, dua kali chat kemaren kita ngobrol tapi habis itu cuman aku read & see doang. aku jahat banget ya

maaf, akhir-akhir ini mulai ngajak temenan lagi kaya dulu (setelah 9 bulan lost-contact) tapi akunya cuman ngerespon biasa dan sekedarnya aja. masih jaim, wajarlah

l o s t c o n t a c t

maaf, pas kemaren nraktir makan tapi aku ga datang. takut kalau-kalau ada setan yang masuk melalui pandangan mata

maaf, pas kemaren ngajakin buat menjalin hubungan asmara tapi aku tetep keukeuh bilang kita temenan aja. toh pacaran haram

maaf, pas kemaren maksain aku buat bisa ngasih support (re:pacaran) tapi aku bilang kita temenan aja. ngasih support gak harus pacaran

maaf, pas kemaren ngetokin pintu rumah sekitaran jam 06:10 pm tapi gak aku bukain. shalat maghribku belum kelar soalnya. aku tidak ingin menerima tamu laki-laki yang bukan mahramnya

maaf, pas kemaren minta nomer handphone tapi gak aku kasih + gak aku ladenin, aslinya pengen ngasih buat jaga perasaan. karena ketika aku berumur 12 th, aku sudah berjanji dan memiliki tekad tidak akan membagi-bagikan nomerku kepada laki-laki yang bukan mahramnya

maaf, pas kemaren mampir kerumah tapi aku diam-diam langsung pergi kerumah temen lewat samping rumah, aku baru sadar dulu aku sejahat itu. takutnya ada setan yang masuk melalui pandangan mata

maaf, pas kemaren minta temenin belanja ke distro tapi aku tolak. cowo sama cewe yang bukan mahram kalo lagi jalan berdua takutnya jadi fitnah


Tapi.
Setidaknya aku juga sudah memafkan kesalahan si bunga kok.
Tenang aja..

But, lastly..
uummmm sorry :D

Selasa, 07 Juni 2016

RETURN HOME!

Assalamualaikum teman teman..
Lama banget udah ga nulis lagi setelah uas pertengahan mei kemaren, dan setelah uas sekitar seminggu sesudahnya aku sengaja ga langsung pulang kampung. KENAPA?? bakalan ada uas yang take home, bakalan ada pengembalian nilai-nilai tugas, uts, uas dari dosen terkait daaan bakalan nyiapin oleh-oleh sekaligus pesenan dari keluarga, teman, dan kerabat tercinta!! dan menurut pengalaman aku yang sudah sudah (padahal kuliah baru setaon), kemaren pas semester satu (masih lugu, cupu dan menggemaskan) habis uas langsung aja pulang.. nggak deng, 1 hari setelah uas.

f l a s h b a c k d u l u y a a a . . .
Itu aku inget banget sore itu sehabis uas aku sama febrina lagi ketar-ketir nyariin oleh-oleh dan nyariin titipan temen. Sebenernya lebih gegerusukan febrina sih, soalnya malemnya dia langsung dijemput sama pamannya, dan baru besok siang berangkat ke palembang. Sedangkan aku besok malemnya baru berangkat ke banjarmasin. Jadinya pas besok aku tinggal beberes kamar sama packing.. DONE!!
Sebenernya sih aku udah diingetin sama mas herry. "yakin nih mau langsung pulang.. yakin nih yakiiinn?? ntar jangan nyesel yaaaa" dari kalimatnya tuh malah nakut-nakutin tau ga. Jadi dilema mau pulang cepet apa engga. Ya wajar lah namanya juga anak M A B A, masih terngiang-ngiang akan kampung halaman dan bawaan pengen cepet pulang..

Dan kalian tau apa?? (1)
Waktu itu penerbangannya di delay 2 jam. Kesepakatan perjanjian antara aku sama bapak supir travel yang ngantar aku dari kalimantan selatan ke kalimantan tengah pun enyah lah sudah. Apa daya.. penerbangan yang seharusnya tertulis di boarding pass jam 19:15 WIB, berubah menjadi jam 21:00 WIB, nyampe di banjarmasin ya jam 23:00 WITA.. emang sih kalo nyari travel jam segitu masih ada, tapi bakalan gak enak banget, yang supirnya ugal-ugalan, penumpang ada yang ngerokok, pokoknya gaenak. soalnya ilegal kaan, ya tapi itu ga semua siihh.. hoki hokian aja.
Ohya nih buat nambah pengalaman juga. JANGAN PERNAH MILIH PENERBANGAN MALAM karena kemungkinan BAKAL DELAY (yatergantung maskapainya juga sih ehehe), udah janji juga sama agen travel kalo bakal landing jam 21:00 WITA, tau-taunya malah take-off nya yang jam 21:00 WIB (malu-maluin banget ini sumpah. untung aja mesen travel nya lewat sms, coba kalo lewat videocall (yakali v-call) bakalan malu (banget-banget-sebanget-bangetnya) aku)
Alhamdulillah sih yah waktu itu dari malangnya aku barengan sama dwi normalia, anak banjarmasin dan kebetulan kita satu prodi cuman beda kelas yeayyyy. Tapi tetep aja delay dan gabisa langsung ke kalimantan tengah, sedih tau :'|

Dan kalian tau apa?? (2)
Berhubung aku tau aku bakal nginep di banjarmasin dulu, yaudah deh daripada suntuk nungguin delay akhirnya aku beli paketan internet buat ngecheck informasi baru di group bbm, maklum biasanya temen-temenku suka pada ribut di group kelas bbm. Dan pas aku buka bbm, kalian tau apa?? (3) banyak notif dari group kelas (nahyekannbener) ternyata anak anak pada ribut bahasin salah satu mata kuliah yang nyuruh bikin makalah dan dikumpulin besok (gilagaktuh-,-). kenapa sih kabarnya gak pas kemaren aja, jadi aku masih bisa wifi-an dulu dikost.. iya jadi aja waktu itu di bandara lagi kalang kabut (banget) aku udah di surabaya coy gabisa balik ke malang lagi.. bisa bisa ditinggal pesawat ntar aku (dan seketika aku langsung nyesel punya persepsi HABIS UAS LANGSUNG PULANG). akhirnya aku nenangin diri dulu wkwk.. terus aku bbm temen-temen ku satu per satu buat sekedar nanya siapa yang masih di malang. akhirnya si fida masih di malang dan dia RELA buat bantu aku ngeprint dan ngumpulin tugas aku (ah fida rasanya waktu itu pengen kupeluk kamunya)


dan berhubung delay masih lama dan daripada aku nganggur enjoy gak jelas (padahal udah tau deadline makalahnya besok) yaudah aja aku langsung ngidupin laptop dan langsung ngerjain makalah (untungnya laptop gak aku taroh koper, bayangin koper yang udah di bagasiin terus diambil lagi demi.. ngelarin.. ma ka lah.) akhirnya aku langsung ngerjain kan, dapet 5 lembar sih masih, tapi itu baru sampe bab pendahuluan dan masih ada 2 bab dan daftar pustaka yang belum sedangkan besok pagi aku harus udah ngirim ke email fida. hhmmm kayanya malam ini bakalan be-ga-dang deh.

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YAK..
itu barusan opening nya (doang)..
sekarang ngebahas yang bagian isi nya.
berhubung aku udah belajar dari kejadian semester 1 kemaren.. aku udah sepakat sama dwi pulangnya seminggu sehabis UAS dan kita juga udah sepakat bakal milih penerbangan SIANG.
Dan bener aja..
Ada uas yang take home (target aku 4 hari buat ngerjain tugas) yah walaupun tugas ini deadline nya masih seminggu lagi (itupun udah dinego sama temen-temen sekelas) jadinya dari seminggu itu nambah negosiasi pengumpulan tugas, jadinya fix ngumpulin itu tugas masih 11 hari yang akan datang. Dosennya baik banget kalo masalah negosiasi.. tapi tugasnya BEUH.. NGERI COY. Jadi tugasnya itu ada 4: bikin karya tulis ilmiah, bikin rancangan pembelajaran dan aktivitas, bikin pptnya dan disuruh presentasi. dan kita gadibolehin ambil dari blog ataupun wordpress.. kalo bisa ambil dari jurnal-jurnal luar negeri. dan dari keempat tugas itu yang paling sulit itu dibagian presentasinya. sulit banget kah? engga sih sebenernya. paling juga ngulang-ngulang.. jadi imanda dan monic yang selalu ngerjain dikost ku, tiap udah nyampe tahap ini.. mereka ngulang hampir lebih dari 5 kali. beneran. aku ga boong. aku di TKP soalnya wkwk. Sebenernya kalo ga riweuh sih 1 atau 2 kali aja jadi itu video. masalahnya cewe itu riweuh nya kebangetan.
pipi keliatan tembem dikit, ULANG.
pencahayaan kurang pas, ULANG.
kurang senyum, ULANG.
tapi kita yang umum-umum ajelahyah..
seperti suara motor lewat, ULANG.
mbak-mbak kost berisik (troublemaker banget), ULANG.
lupa mau ngomong apaan, ULANG.
intinya jangan gugup, rileks dan kuasain materi. akupun juga gitu sih sebenernya ahahaha. Dan sebenernya ditengah-tengah ngerjain tugas itu aku sakit.. hhikss. jadinya gagal target deh.. jadi 5 hari ngerjain tugasnya. gapapa gapapa. Udah kelar masalah tugas, sekarang masalah oleh-oleh (beruntung temen-temen gada yang nitip beliin sesuatu sama aku). Jadi siang itu sekitar jam 10am aku ditemenin salsa beli oleh-oleh buat orang rumah. dari jam 10-12am.. Habis beres packing, malemnya kita makan soto madura, sebenernya sih pengen diajakin makan soto kraksaan sama monic, berhubung motornya dipake jadi yaudah aja soto madura gantinya (gatau malem itu pengen banget makan soto)..

Daann hari ini aku pulaangg (read:May24th2016)
aku sama dwi milih penerbangan siang jam 2pm an. dan kalian tau apa??? (4) masih delay juga coooyyyy.. dan aku ngabarin agen travel juga kalo di delay, dia bilang kalo delaynya sampe 1 jam, akunya bakalan ditinggal (sedih) dan dwi juga udah buka tawaran nginep lagi (enggak enggak aku gamau nginep-nginep.. aku maunya besok harus udah dirumah) sempet takut juga waktu itu kalo delay nya sampe lebih dari 1 jam (tiba-tiba teringat akan delay 2 jam yang kemaren).. tapi untungnya delaynya cuman 30 menit wkwkwk masih bisa lah masih bisa..
keluar dari bandara aku udah langsung naik travel dan langsung berangkat ke kalimantan tengah. YEAY. dan kalian tau apa? sebenernya travel itu tinggal nunggu aku doang. aku sebagai penumpang terakhir merasa bersalah sama penumpang satu travel wkwk :')

SKIP -perjalanan 10 jam-

On 02:50am, May25th2016
Aku nyampe rumah subuh-subuh dalam keadaan NGGAK mabuk a.k.a sehat wal afiat (cuman rada pusing doang). Aku seneng banget, selama perjalanan dari malang-surabaya-banjarmasin-muara teweh aku gak mabuk sama sekali. Biasanya kalo gak dari mlg-sby atau bjm-mtw aku selalu mabuk. Tapi sebenernya paling sering mabuk pas perjalanan mtw-bjm soalnya perjalanannya beuh kaya naik roller coaster terus ada jalan yang rusak gitu. YAS. SE-LA-LU mabuk. tapi kali ini aku ga mabuk (sumpah seneng banget nyampe rumah aku langsung jingkrak jingkrak) <- ini beneran, serius, ga bohong. trust me. 
hhngg aku tau deh kenapa aku ga mabuk. soalnya sebelum berangkat itu aku ga makan apa-apa kecuali minum. rencana sih pagi itu pengen beli roti sama susu tapi gajadi, berasa males banget. besok-besok kalo perjalanan jauh gausah makan aja biar ga mabuk wkkw
Tau gak sih.. aku nyampe rumah tuh paginya udah dimasakin sayur tahu kuah kuning gitu (sampe sekarang aku gatau namanya apaan). itutuh kesukaan aku banget.. terus-terus pas baru dateng aku kedapur (nyari sesuatu yang bisa dimakan) nemuin salah satu jenis pisang kesukaanku (pisang susu) dan kalian tau apa?? (5) aku habis 5 dalam sekali duduk (aku benar-benar merasa kelaparan. entah karena kelaparan atau karena balas dendam selama di malang jarang banget beli pisang -pisangnya mahal coy)
habis itu besok paginya mamaku beliin untuk untuk isi kacang ijo kesukaanku (sebenernya lebih enak yang kacang tanah, tapi jarang ada yang jual) dan dia masakin jantung pisang dimasak santen.
besoknya lagi dibeliin wadai gambung (ini juga favorit akuuuu) dan dimasakin sayur bening, perkedel tahu sama ayam goreng. 
sumpah..
kalo gini terus mah ganyampe seminggu berat badan udah naik.
BENER AJA!! dalam waktu 4 hari ganyampe seminggu malahan.. berat badan aku naik 2 kg. Aku gatau harus seneng apa sedih wkwk.. yang penting mumpung lagi dikampun halaman, puas-puasin makan masakannya mama daripada ntar dikost nyesel kan galucu..

Lana Del Rey - Summertime Sadness

Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That baby you're the best

I got my red dress on tonight
Dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight
Got my hair up real big beauty queen style
High heels off, I'm feeling alive

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air
Telephone wires above all sizzlin' like your stare
Honey I'm on fire I feel it everywhere
Nothing scares me anymore

Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That baby you're the best
I've got that summertime, summertime sadness
Summertime, summertime sadness
Got that summertime, summertime sadness

I'm feelin' electric tonight
Cruising down the coast goin' 'bout 99
Got my bad baby by my heavenly side
Oh if I go, I'll die happy tonight
 
Oh, my God, I feel it in the air
Telephone wires above all sizzlin' like your stare
Honey I'm on fire I feel it everywhere
Nothing scares me anymore

Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That baby you're the best
I've got that summertime, summertime sadness
Summertime, summertime sadness
Got that summertime, summertime sadness

I think I'll miss you forever
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning skies
Late is better than never
Even if you're gone I'm gonna drive, drive
I've got that summertime, summertime sadness
Summertime, summertime sadness
Got that summertime, summertime sadness

Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That baby you're the best
I've got that summertime, summertime sadness
Summertime, summertime sadness
Got that summertime, summertime sadness

Lana Del Rey - Blue Jeans

Blue jeans, white shirt
Walked into the room you know you made my eyes burn
It was like James Dean, for sure
You're so fresh to death and sick as ca-cancer

You were sorta punk rock
I grew up on hip hop
But you fit me better than my favorite sweater, and I know
That love is mean, and love hurts
But I still remember that day we met in December
Oh baby

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
Oh baby, I will love you till the end of time

Big dreams, gangsta
Said you had to leave to start your life over
I was like, "No please, stay here
We don't need no money, we could make it all work"

But he headed out on Sunday, said he'd come home Monday
I stayed up waiting', anticipating', and pacing'
But he was chasing' paper
Caught up in the game - that was the last I heard
Oh baby

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
Oh baby, I will love you till the end of time

You went out every night
And baby that's alright
I told you that no matter what you did I'd be by your side
'Cause imma ride or die
Whether you fail or fly
Well, shit, at least you tried
But when you walked out that door
A piece of me died
Told you I wanted more, that's not what I had in mind
Just want it like before
We were dancing' all night
Then they took you away, stole you out of my life
You just need to remember

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears
Love you more than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
Oh baby, I will love you till the end of time
 

Lana Del Rey - Without You

Everything I want I have
Money, notoriety and riviera
I even think I found God
In the flashbulbs of the
Pretty cameras
Pretty cameras
Pretty cameras

Am I glamorous?
Tell me am I glamorous?
Hello, hello ca-can you hear me?
I can be your China doll
If you want to see me fall
You're so good
Your love is deadly
Tell me life is beautiful
They all think I have it all

I'm nothing, without you
All my dreams
And all the lights mean
Nothing without you

Summertime is nice and hot
And my life is sweet like vanilla is
Gold and silver line my heart
But brand into my brain
Are these stolen images
Stolen images baby stolen images
Can you picture it babe the life we could've lived

Hello, hello? Ca-can you hear me?
I can be your China doll if you want to see me fall
Boy, you're so dope
Your love is deadly
Tell me life is beautiful
They all think I have it all

I'm nothing without you
All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing without you

We were two kids, just tryin' to get out
Live on the dark side of the American dream
We would dance all night, play our music loud
When we grew up, nothing was what it seemed

Hello? Hello?
C-can you hear me?
I can be your China doll
If you like to see me fall

Boy, you're so dope
Your love is deadly
Tell me life is beautiful
They think that I have it all

I'm nothing without you
All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing without you

Hello? Hello?
C-can you hear me?
I can be your China doll
If you like to see me fall

Boy, you're so dope
Your love is deadly
Tell me life is beautiful
They think that I have it all

I'm nothing without you
All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing without you
All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing if I can't have you

Jumat, 03 Juni 2016

Lana Del Rey - Radio

Not even they can stop me now
Boy, I'll be flying overhead
Their heavy words can't bring me down
Boy I've been raised from the dead

No one even knows how hard life was
I don't even think about it now because
I've finally found you
Oh, sing it to me

Now my life is sweet like cinnamon
Like a fucking dream I'm living in
Baby love me cause I'm playing on the radio
(How do you like me now?)

Pick me up and take me like a vitamin
'Cause my body's sweet like sugar venom oh yeah
Baby love me cause I'm playing on the radio
(How do you like me now?)

American dreams came true somehow
I swore I'd chase until I was dead
I heard the streets were paved with gold
That's what my father said

No one even knows what life was like
Now I'm in LA and it's paradise
I've finally found you
Oh, sing it to me

Now my life is sweet like cinnamon
Like a fucking dream I'm living in
Baby love me cause I'm playing on the radio
(How do you like me now?)

Pick me up and take me like a vitamin
'Cause my body's sweet like sugar venom oh yeah
Baby love me 'cause I'm playing on the radio
(How do you like me now?)

(On the radio)
Sweet like cinnamon
Like a fucking dream I'm living in
Baby love me 'cause I'm playing on the radio
(How do you like me now?)

(On the radio)
Sweet like cinnamon
Like a fucking dream I'm living in
I've finally found you
(Oh, sing it to me)

Now my life is sweet like cinnamon
Like a fucking dream I'm living in
Baby love me 'cause I'm playing on the radio
(How do you like me now?)

Pick me up and take me like a vitamin
'Cause my body's sweet like sugar venom oh yeah
Baby love me 'cause I'm playing on the radio
(How do you like me now?)

Oh, sing it to me
Now my life is sweet like cinnamon
Like a fucking dream I'm living in
Baby love me 'cause I'm playing on the radio
(How do you like me now?)

Pick me up and take me like a vitamin
'Cause my body's sweet like sugar venom oh yeah
Baby love me 'cause I'm playing on the radio
(How do you like me now?)
 

Lana Del Rey - Young And Beautiful

I've seen the world
Done it all
Had my cake now
Diamonds, brilliant
And Bel Air now

Hot summer nights, mid July
When you and I were forever wild
The crazy days, city lights
The way you'd play with me like a child

Will you still love me
When I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?

I've seen the world, lit it up
As my stage now
Channeling angels in the new age now
Hot summer days, rock 'n' roll
The way you play for me at your show
And all the ways I got to know
Your pretty face and electric soul

Will you still love me
When I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?

Dear Lord, when I get to heaven
Please let me bring my man
When he comes tell me that you'll let him in
Father tell me if you can
Oh that grace, oh that body
Oh that face makes me wanna party
He's my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds

Will you still love me
When I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?
Will you still love me when I'm not young and beautiful?

Lana Del Rey - Once Upon A Dream (Maleficent)

I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream
I know you, that look in your eyes is so familiar a gleam
And I know it's true that visions are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream

But if I know you, I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
The way you did once upon a dream

I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream
I know you, that gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam
And I know it's true that visions are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream